The dark silence
It is the silence that drapes like a dark velvet curtain
with the settling of night
that can no longer keep quiet
the storm inside of me.
The days are light and laughter and loud distractions.
During the day, I can pretend I'm okay.
But the nightfall sits, stinging and judgemental.
There are no explanations, no justifications
that don't seem sour on that silence.
The wall of once was weighs on my chest
like a bag of bricks and I can't breathe.
I can't see anything but him.
How could it be that he is not here?
How did it not unfold
that he would hold me in this darkness
and fill the silence with sweet whispers
and shared secrets?
He was to be that soft candle light
that allows me to see, to know where I am going.
Even the stars seem so far away.
Only in the night can I not deny
that I am completely alone.